No, I am not pregnant, yet. But we can't wait for that day to come. This news is very exciting to us.
This Sunday we get to be interviewed by our Bishop for temple recommends and then on Wednesday we get to talk to our Stake President on Wednesday. We will be going to the temple, if all goes well, on August 7, 2015 to get Endowed.
I love my husband and I love my mother-in-law who has said that she will be my escort in the temple. Which means for about 2 hours she will be my "holy ghost" in a way. What escorts do is they guide you through the temple. And then they get to sit with us in the Celestial Room and talk with us, QUIETLY, about what we learned.
Yes, this was a short blog but it was amazing news and I had to share it.
(And no I do NOT know what goes on in the temple nor am I allowed to discuss it after I go through it. It is NOT secret, it is SACRED)
Wednesday, July 22, 2015
Thursday, July 16, 2015
An Open Letter to My Sister-In-Law About how I Feel When she Treats me the way she Does
My sweet sister-in-law,
I love you because you are tied to me for eternity soon, but I don't like some of the things you say to me and how you have treated me. You say its because you don't know me very well. Well you tried to get to know me for a day and then you apparently disliked me. I have a question for you, what did I do to you?
Oh wait let me answer that. I fell in love with your brother. You have two others. So that's not the reason, let me guess again. Umm, I'm not the perfect girl for him, well neither are you so that can't be the answer. No I'm not giving these answers out of hate, or jealousy or anything. It is just so you understand how much I hurt when you spew lies about me.
Like when you said I got pregnant out of wedlock. No I didn't. You just don't understand our situation and how much we love each other. Or when you said that a brother in our church would never spew lies, yes nobody's perfect and they lie once in awhile. Nobody can tell the truth one hundred percent of the time.
When you said that if he marries me he would loose his inheritance, that hurt me straight to the core. It's like you said that I am not good enough. That I am stupid just because I am autistic. And we've told you that, but you still hate me. When you say that you don't know me or when you say that I did something I have two Witnesses that say that I went nowhere near that door, then who's lying?
On July 4, 2015 when you invited us to your house I dreaded it. I just couldn't understand why, if you don't like me, why do you even tell me to come over. To make me sad, angry, hurt even? Maybe I shed a tear or two when I was over at your house, its because I don't understand why I feel so much hatred.
Am I that worthless to you? Do you think that I am not worthy of the Priesthood blessings in my home that you don't give a second thought when your husband has them? Or is it just because I have Autism and that you don't think that our kids will do just fine in normal societies? I mean it is a 1/4 chances of them even having Autism. Is that a lot? Yes, but we will manage it. There are more things wrong with me that nobody knows about except Mom (Mother-in-law) and Rob. I mean nobody else has to know. It's my choice whether to reveal it or not. But please don't do this anymore. I will just end up hating myself because you do. I don't have that much self esteem. I love you, but I don't LIKE you.
Love you sis,
Troian Miller
P.S. This is my family now too. So I love Mom just as much as anyone.
These are just some things that need to be put in perspective.
I love you because you are tied to me for eternity soon, but I don't like some of the things you say to me and how you have treated me. You say its because you don't know me very well. Well you tried to get to know me for a day and then you apparently disliked me. I have a question for you, what did I do to you?
Oh wait let me answer that. I fell in love with your brother. You have two others. So that's not the reason, let me guess again. Umm, I'm not the perfect girl for him, well neither are you so that can't be the answer. No I'm not giving these answers out of hate, or jealousy or anything. It is just so you understand how much I hurt when you spew lies about me.
Like when you said I got pregnant out of wedlock. No I didn't. You just don't understand our situation and how much we love each other. Or when you said that a brother in our church would never spew lies, yes nobody's perfect and they lie once in awhile. Nobody can tell the truth one hundred percent of the time.
When you said that if he marries me he would loose his inheritance, that hurt me straight to the core. It's like you said that I am not good enough. That I am stupid just because I am autistic. And we've told you that, but you still hate me. When you say that you don't know me or when you say that I did something I have two Witnesses that say that I went nowhere near that door, then who's lying?
On July 4, 2015 when you invited us to your house I dreaded it. I just couldn't understand why, if you don't like me, why do you even tell me to come over. To make me sad, angry, hurt even? Maybe I shed a tear or two when I was over at your house, its because I don't understand why I feel so much hatred.
Am I that worthless to you? Do you think that I am not worthy of the Priesthood blessings in my home that you don't give a second thought when your husband has them? Or is it just because I have Autism and that you don't think that our kids will do just fine in normal societies? I mean it is a 1/4 chances of them even having Autism. Is that a lot? Yes, but we will manage it. There are more things wrong with me that nobody knows about except Mom (Mother-in-law) and Rob. I mean nobody else has to know. It's my choice whether to reveal it or not. But please don't do this anymore. I will just end up hating myself because you do. I don't have that much self esteem. I love you, but I don't LIKE you.
Love you sis,
Troian Miller
P.S. This is my family now too. So I love Mom just as much as anyone.
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| I love being a Miller |
Monday, July 6, 2015
Exotic Animals from Animal Tales in Mayfield, Kentucky
I loved Steve's program and highly recommend it! I am so calling and asking them to do it for my anniversary! Ugh it would make it super special!! Here are the animals he brought!
Are they just the cutest animals? I have an album on my private Facebook but I will probably put them on my writers page too. There is one more that I have with Steve, Sydney, and myself.
I just loved the show tonight! But the baby kangaroo topped it off! I loved these new friends of mine!
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| Osiris the bat |
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| Hog island Boa Constrictor virtually extinct species |
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| Zazu the Von der Deckens Hornbill |
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| African Crested Porcupine |
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| Sydney the baby red kangaroo |
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| Steve and Sydney |
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| Prettiest baby kangaroo! |
Independence Day 2015
Why is it that Independence day rings so true to me and my entire Miller Family? Because, it is something that we can do a big blowout.
July 3, 2015
We pulled up to my in-laws house around 6:00 pm. We had a great supper of mac and cheese. My Mother-in-Law, awesome as she is, went to bed around 10 pm and I followed her shortly because of my cough and nauseousness.
July 4, 2015
I woke up the next morning around 10 am and was still very nauseous. We then proceeded to get some groceries for the 4th celebration at the Miller household. When we got back we were told that my sister-in-law was hosting a bbq and that we were invited. Everyone grumbled about it. I mean yes I love my sister-in-law, does she love me? Well no not really. So we all went, and about halfway through it my hubby and I went back to my in-laws place. A bit after we got to my sister-in-law has us over and we are getting our food. Everyone sits at the table, then most of them decide to go outside. I sit in the living room chair and I just hold my food, tears dribbling down my face. And no this is not how I wanted my 4th to go but yet it did. My husband comforted me the best he could.
July 5, 2015
We went to church and stayed for Sacrament meeting. Then we went back to my in-laws and got ready for that day's bbq. It was so much better! Ugh no: Not feeling wanted, feeling dirty, and feeling like I am worthless. Yes she is Endowed but that doesn't make her better. It frankly makes her worse in my book. I just can't believe that she would treat me with the disrespect, and out right hate she does.
That's the end of my day-to-day thing lol. But seriously if you feel like you are unwanted, or dirty, or worthless, I don't think you would want to hang around her/him either. I mean she has even outright said that if he is married to me that he would get a dollar and that's it. Well guess what, she is only CO-executor NOT executor. My husband is the other Co and she can't do anything without his signature. My mother-in-law is also about ready to cut her out of co executor and put my older brother-in-law in charge of the other part of it. He and my husband get along just great. He hasn't met me, but I can't wait!
July 3, 2015
We pulled up to my in-laws house around 6:00 pm. We had a great supper of mac and cheese. My Mother-in-Law, awesome as she is, went to bed around 10 pm and I followed her shortly because of my cough and nauseousness.
July 4, 2015
I woke up the next morning around 10 am and was still very nauseous. We then proceeded to get some groceries for the 4th celebration at the Miller household. When we got back we were told that my sister-in-law was hosting a bbq and that we were invited. Everyone grumbled about it. I mean yes I love my sister-in-law, does she love me? Well no not really. So we all went, and about halfway through it my hubby and I went back to my in-laws place. A bit after we got to my sister-in-law has us over and we are getting our food. Everyone sits at the table, then most of them decide to go outside. I sit in the living room chair and I just hold my food, tears dribbling down my face. And no this is not how I wanted my 4th to go but yet it did. My husband comforted me the best he could.
July 5, 2015
We went to church and stayed for Sacrament meeting. Then we went back to my in-laws and got ready for that day's bbq. It was so much better! Ugh no: Not feeling wanted, feeling dirty, and feeling like I am worthless. Yes she is Endowed but that doesn't make her better. It frankly makes her worse in my book. I just can't believe that she would treat me with the disrespect, and out right hate she does.
That's the end of my day-to-day thing lol. But seriously if you feel like you are unwanted, or dirty, or worthless, I don't think you would want to hang around her/him either. I mean she has even outright said that if he is married to me that he would get a dollar and that's it. Well guess what, she is only CO-executor NOT executor. My husband is the other Co and she can't do anything without his signature. My mother-in-law is also about ready to cut her out of co executor and put my older brother-in-law in charge of the other part of it. He and my husband get along just great. He hasn't met me, but I can't wait!
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