Got Married- September 3, 2014

Well, we are married! Yay, now its just a waiting period to get married in the temple! I love being able to say the word "husband" I claim his as mine, and mine alone! I can't wait to be a mom, but I have plenty of time for that! We'll be great parents, but first we have to get to that point. I love him so much.

    We got married by a judge, yes not very romantic, but romantic enough for us! The missionaries from Rolla, Missouri, Elder Drake and Elder Harding, were our witnesses. Our love has now blossomed and will continue to blossom! Our Wedding date is September 3, 2014! I love him with all my heart! Here are the pictures!

Yes there they are! I love my husband and he works so hard for us!

Part One: How we Met

Part Two: Got Engaged

Thanksgiving Extravanganza 2015

Last year Rob worked Thanksgiving and so we weren't able to have Thanksgiving with his family, a bummer because I could've met my niece and nephew. But this year was different. We headed to my inlaws house on Wednesday night and I was able to help my mother-in-law out, until she sprayed me with water and we discovered that it was best for all of us to stay out of her way.

We woke up early Thanksgiving morning and we watched the Parade, or what we wanted to of it. It's all about singing now days, with nothing about Thanksgiving or Christmas. So we decided to watch a Christmas movie, which I found to be the most hilarious thing you could ever see. Around 12 pm that day we turned off the TV and gathered around the table and said the blessing on the food.

The conversation was amazing, and when we were full we waited for awhile to have pie. After we had pie it was time to go home. Thanksgiving with the family was amazing this year. I cannot wait until Christmas dinner.

After Thanksgiving our lives got hectic. My husband and I are getting Sealed for Time and All Eternity December 12, 2015. I cannot wait until this Saturday. It will be an amazing experience. There are pictures from our Endowment date that I have shared but they will keep you occupied until this Saturday.

I will be making another blog soon!

Cooking and other things we stay at home wives get to do!

October was very busy! Lets just say I had fun. When I returned home I got to cook for my husband. It is time that I really start cooking. So far so good. 4-5 nights a week. Yes we've been married over a year and I still have to accomplish that much. I love being a stay at home wife. It gives me time to get things done. I will be going to school again in 2016. I cannot wait. Christmas is almost upon us again. Its like where did this year go? Soon I will be in college and be getting my degree. Don't be surprised that I have again changed my mind. But its Psychology that really turns my mind. I can't wait to do research.

I can't wait until I can tell my loving husband that he will be a father. I was hoping to do that before Christmas 2015, but alas that hasn't happened. I do not mind it. It gives us another year to celebrate being a couple. I have been busy getting the house ready. I am actually hopefully going to begin a job online to bring in extra income while staying at home! It will make it easy to keep up with the housework and the cooking as well as making some extra money.

I was able to buy the things I need for the temple. The only thing left is my dress. I am so happy. Going to the Temple is great. Being close to one is amazing. While a lot of members have to travel.

Being back home has been amazing. We are having the Sista Missionaries over right after Thanksgiving. I can't wait to have them over. Maybe I will go with them soon. It will be a great thing for me so I can help them. I have to plan that Family Home Evening so that it will be great. I cannot wait to pop open a game or something and have fun with them.

Being a wife has taken a lot out of me, but I'm glad. I am so glad that my husband is understanding. When I get the house cleaned and he comes in with his dinner prepared he is so happy. I can't wait until we have kids to mess up the house and he comes in and helps clean up.

In other news, my husband is going to go and enter the USAF. Our children will understand that we chose this and that they didn't but they will respect us and our choice. They will be raised in the military and it will be a hard life BUT one I'm so glad I'm prepared for. I can't wait to go all over the world wherever the USAF needs my husband.

That's how our lives have been! I love the fact that this blog is a way to tell people about my life, and also that I can look back on my life.

St Louis Temple!

Yesterday I had the privilege to go with Sarah Smith and her daughter Elizabeth Wethy, yes she even said when she was little her nickname was Bethy Wethy then she ended up marrying a Wethy which is comical. Sarah picked me up around 9 and then off to St. Louis we went. The GPS kept yelling at us, Lol, and I kept telling Siri to shush to no avail. We finally got there at 11 am precisely then we went and got the clothing we needed. Surprise it was on sale, or at least the material I have come to love was. 50% off, who can beat that? No one! Then right after we were done her daughter came up and Sarah bought her a couple more pairs of the clothing. Then we ate, had a wonderful time making jokes and laughing. Then it was time to go inside the temple.

We were about to go in when I patted my skirt, no pockets, and we had to turn around and go back to her car, I forgot my temple recommend. Which is the funniest thing! When we were finally able to go in I had to rent the clothes inside there and that's okay, no folding for me. Then they decided to do a baptism each, which turned out to not be a good idea for Sarah, next time I will have the privilege to do the work for her. She also had some Male's that needed done so we left those for the St. Robert YSA group to do so off we went to do some other things.

After the temple, which turned out to be an hour over what we were expecting, but its what was needed as there were sealing's needed to be done, and I got to participate in those, I can't wait for my own sealing to my loving husband. I took a photo of Sarah and her daughter at the temple. It was really needed. But at least we will be able to see each other once a month so we can enjoy the blessings of the temple.

On the ride back we kept yelling at other drivers LOL. It was rush hour in ST Louis. Super fun! NOT! Oh well. Its not that big of a deal. I love the fact that we can go to the temple to do work for the ancestors that need it!

August 7, 2015- Endowed

Last Friday we were Endowed. Yes a lot of you don't understand what this means, but that's okay. For those of you who do, I'm pleased and very excited to announce that we are getting sealed for time and all eternity December 12, 2015.

This date is very significant to us. My grandmother-in-law was born on December 12, 1925 and she died October 5, 2010. I never go to meet her but I've heard so much about her. And my mother-in-law gets really emotional on December 12. So we want it to be a day to be happy.

I love that I get to be apart of a family that is sealed for time and all eternity dating back to the civil war era.

Here are some pictures so you can enjoy it as well as we did.

Amazing News

No, I am not pregnant, yet. But we can't wait for that day to come. This news is very exciting to us.

This Sunday we get to be interviewed by our Bishop for temple recommends and then on Wednesday we get to talk to our Stake President on Wednesday. We will be going to the temple, if all goes well, on August 7, 2015 to get Endowed.

I love my husband and I love my mother-in-law who has said that she will be my escort in the temple. Which means for about 2 hours she will be my "holy ghost" in a way. What escorts do is they guide you through the temple. And then they get to sit with us in the Celestial Room and talk with us, QUIETLY, about what we learned.

Yes, this was a short blog but it was amazing news and I had to share it.

(And no I do NOT know what goes on in the temple nor am I allowed to discuss it after I go through it. It is NOT secret, it is SACRED)

An Open Letter to My Sister-In-Law About how I Feel When she Treats me the way she Does

My sweet sister-in-law,

I love you because you are tied to me for eternity soon, but I don't like some of the things you say to me and how you have treated me. You say its because you don't know me very well. Well you tried to get to know me for a day and then you apparently disliked me. I have a question for you, what did I do to you?

Oh wait let me answer that. I fell in love with your brother. You have two others. So that's not the reason, let me guess again. Umm, I'm not the perfect girl for him, well neither are you so that can't be the answer. No I'm not giving these answers out of hate, or jealousy or anything. It is just so you understand how much I hurt when you spew lies about me.

Like when you said I got pregnant out of wedlock. No I didn't. You just don't understand our situation and how much we love each other. Or when you said that a brother in our church would never spew lies, yes nobody's perfect and they lie once in awhile. Nobody can tell the truth one hundred percent of the time.

When you said that if he marries me he would loose his inheritance, that hurt me straight to the core. It's like you said that I am not good enough. That I am stupid just because I am autistic. And we've told you that, but you still hate me. When you say that you don't know me or when you say that I did something I have two Witnesses that say that I went nowhere near that door, then who's lying?

On July 4, 2015 when you invited us to your house I dreaded it. I just couldn't understand why, if you don't like me, why do you even tell me to come over. To make me sad, angry, hurt even? Maybe I shed a tear or two when I was over at your house, its because I don't understand why I feel so much hatred.

Am I that worthless to you? Do you think that I am not worthy of the Priesthood blessings in my home that you don't give a second thought when your husband has them? Or is it just because I have Autism and that you don't think that our kids will do just fine in normal societies? I mean it is a 1/4 chances of them even having Autism. Is that a lot? Yes, but we will manage it. There are more things wrong with me that nobody knows about except Mom (Mother-in-law) and Rob. I mean nobody else has to know. It's my choice whether to reveal it or not. But please don't do this anymore. I will just end up hating myself because you do. I don't have that much self esteem. I love you, but I don't LIKE you.

Love you sis,

Troian Miller

P.S. This is my family now too. So I love Mom just as much as anyone.

I love being a Miller

These are just some things that need to be put in perspective.

Exotic Animals from Animal Tales in Mayfield, Kentucky

I loved Steve's program and highly recommend it! I am so calling and asking them to do it for my anniversary! Ugh it would make it super special!! Here are the animals he brought!

Osiris the bat

Hog island Boa Constrictor virtually extinct species

Zazu the Von der Deckens Hornbill

African Crested Porcupine

Sydney the baby red kangaroo

Steve and Sydney

Prettiest baby kangaroo!

 Are they just the cutest animals? I have an album on my private Facebook but I will probably put them on my writers page too. There is one more that I have with Steve, Sydney, and myself.

I just loved the show tonight! But the baby kangaroo topped it off! I loved these new friends of mine!

Independence Day 2015

Why is it that Independence day rings so true to me and my entire Miller Family? Because, it is something that we can do a big blowout.

July 3, 2015
We pulled up to my in-laws house around 6:00 pm. We had a great supper of mac and cheese. My Mother-in-Law, awesome as she is, went to bed around 10 pm and I followed her shortly because of my cough and nauseousness.

July 4, 2015
I woke up the next morning around 10 am and was still very nauseous. We then proceeded to get some groceries for the 4th celebration at the Miller household. When we got back we were told that my sister-in-law was hosting a bbq and that we were invited. Everyone grumbled about it. I mean yes I love my sister-in-law, does she love me? Well no not really. So we all went, and about halfway through it my hubby and I went back to my in-laws place. A bit after we got to my sister-in-law has us over and we are getting our food. Everyone sits at the table, then most of them decide to go outside. I sit in the living room chair and I just hold my food, tears dribbling down my face. And no this is not how I wanted my 4th to go but yet it did. My husband comforted me the best he could.

July 5, 2015
We went to church and stayed for Sacrament meeting. Then we went back to my in-laws and got ready for that day's bbq. It was so much better! Ugh no: Not feeling wanted, feeling dirty, and feeling like I am worthless. Yes she is Endowed but that doesn't make her better. It frankly makes her worse in my book. I just can't believe that she would treat me with the disrespect, and out right hate she does.

That's the end of my day-to-day thing lol. But seriously if you feel like you are unwanted, or dirty, or worthless, I don't think you would want to hang around her/him either. I mean she has even outright said that if he is married to me that he would get a dollar and that's it. Well guess what, she is only CO-executor NOT executor. My husband is the other Co and she can't do anything without his signature. My mother-in-law is also about ready to cut her out of co executor and put my older brother-in-law in charge of the other part of it. He and my husband get along just great. He hasn't met me, but I can't wait!

Why I will support gay marriage!

Yes I will say that I'm a Mormon and I am proud of it. But that doesn't mean I will shun my gay friends just because of that. I have several gay friends that disagree on what I believe and I them, but we are all Christian.

I don't care whether or not they get married because that is their choice. Not mine. I love my friends and they deserve their own voice. Maybe if we give them one, it will finally matter to them, and we will say that they matter. I am not going against my religion, I am basing my own opinion on this. I think that it should not matter whether we have gay pride or we have straight pride. Do I love my husband? Yes I do. Do others love their husbands? Yes they do. Do my friends love their partner's? With all their hearts. But it shouldn't matter who we are attracted to, whether it be man or woman, we should feel that our love actually matters. That is what this country was based on, equality.

I believe that love should win! No matter what. I know that I married the right person, but maybe the right person for me, is the wrong person for someone else. Why should I be ignorant about gay marriage when it is happening whether I like it or not? I am supportive of it, but a lot of people I know won't support it. Sometimes I think that maybe people are just raised ignorant because their parents think that is the best thing for them. I will raise my kids to be intelligent and to ask questions of everything. No matter what it is. If they want to know why one family has one mom and a dad, and another two dad's and another two mom's then I will answer truthfully and say that is what they chose.

Summer is fast approaching

Yes, I know the weather speaks, "It's summer." But the official day of summer is less then 20 days away! I can't wait! That means we have less than 3 months before we can be sealed for time and all eternity! This last 9 months have given me something that I know I will never want to give back! Marriage took, and still takes, everything out of me. And I am glad it will never give it back. Because though I would love to sleep an extra hour and keep the dishes undone, I now will get up that extra hour early and do those dishes!

So the question I know I have in mind, and probably everyone does, is what will I do for summer. Will I go to my in-laws and bbq a lot, or will I stay at home. Will I go on date night with my husband and let our money bleed dry, or will we save up for that baby we want to have so badly, and sacrifice my time to cook healthy food and make sure that we save up for that eventuality. I believe we will go to my in-laws a lot and bbq and spend time with them. And I believe that I will sacrifice my time and effort into planning a meal and cooking it rather then spending hard earned money and going out to eat every week. We will have those month-aversaries to go out and enjoy ourselves and then our one year anniversary we will get to kneel across the altar and get sealed for time and all eternity.

That is going to be the outline of our summer and its going to be a very busy one! But that is the price we pay! I will be able to upload more things soon! So stay tuned.

And yes, you might have noticed I've changed the blog title AGAIN, well the one right before this, was a temporary one, and now this is our permanent one because we are so close to eternity! Love ya'll!

We have GREAT News!

Let me just start off by saying, no I'm NOT pregnant, sadly. But I had to clarify because since I am married, that is what most people think because you are married, one day! Probably after my husband joins up and serves our country which I fully support him in doing.

The great news is that we both have jobs! Now we both start next week. He starts Monday night at 11 pm and I start on Wednesday at 5 pm for orientation and learning the skills. Our places of employment are about 1 hour from each other. That is a hassle and we will get through it. I can't wait to start and pay a lot of our bills.

When we get situated in our jobs we will be taking some time off because of the fact that we have to travel to Washington State to do some things before he can go into the military. As it is a personal nature I have to keep it to myself. If I do get pregnant in the coming months, it will be okay with us.

We are married and we are willing to take as many children as the Lord sees fit in our family. But for now we will be just a married couple. When we do have children they will brought up in a military home where they will be forced to move around a lot. I have chosen that life, as has my husband. We will be living on a military base and I will probably be doing some things that I can do to work from home or go to college.

My in-laws have told us that we should really get some money saved up for children, but the truth is, you can't save up for children, even though you would like to. Each child is different. They could come into the world with one leg, or one arm, or in rare cases, I've only heard of one little baby having this condition, is to have no nose. Nobody can prepare for children. You can try to save up money but that is also other things, like a rainy day.

I love my husband, when we are in a tough situation he makes sure that I can no have to worry or stress. He tells me that soon we will have a little one on the way and that I need to prepare my body for that.

He treats me like the Princess I am!

I am so happy to have a husband that is so willing to be the stone to keep the rivers of my tears from tearing me down. Whenever I need him, he is there, no matter how, via FaceTime, Skype, texting, or he is a phone call away. I am also so blessed to have my in-laws down the road (30+ miles away) and I can call my mother-in-law and get any help I need. She comforts me when I am sad, and depressed.

I love being a Miller! I cannot wait to help the line continue on and not die with my husband!

How it felt being childless on Mother's Day

I have been married for eight months now. I love being married but people always tell me that I am too young, that I am not ready to have a baby, and that we should enjoy being a couple because life will "end" when you become a parent. I have friends that can tell you that having children is not the end of the world, it is the beginning.

I have to agree with a fellow blogger on one thing, that teen pregnancy is an epidemic right now and that teenage motherhood, especially when the father's don't want to hang around, is a challenge. I have seen challenges faced by teen moms, and while I am never going to say that they are bad mothers, which I know a few are very amazing mothers, they will tell you that being a teen mom is not what it is cracked up to be.

My husband is a very hard-working person. He provides for us and we are saving what we can to make sure we can provide a baby with what he/she needs. I am preparing myself to be a good mother.

In my blessing, something my church does for every member, it says that I will bear CHILDREN. And that I need to learn the things that you need to know when you plan on a baby. We are waiting for God to tell us, "Hey it's time to get pregnant and have baby Miller". And I can't wait for that day! But until then, I will continue learning and growing. I will continue trying to keep a house clean, and unpacking it. But I love being married and I can't wait to have baby Miller, but until I do, if you can see me my darling soon to be child, "I love you and I can't wait to feel you kicking! Please come to us soon and make us parents!"

Moving: How it stresses me out.

I did not know how much moving would actually stress me out. I am super glad to have our first place together, even though we had an apartment before but that was "my apartment" because we were not married and he had a dorm room. I love our little place and once it is ready I will post a blog about the place. It will be a few weeks probably.

Sometimes I feel like I am surrounded by a big piles of just junk that I have to sort through and then I think that I won't ever get it done. Well I will get it done and then I will not slow down after that. I cannot wait to have a clean house and not have any junk. 

I will be cleaning and putting a bag aside for give away. When that is done I will start on the dishes that I have been putting off a little bit, and then I will do the thing I wish that I could have done a long time ago, and I will start reading my scriptures and telling my husband that he should too. We should not let our heads hit the pillow and our eyes close until we have read at least a verse or two of scripture.

I love my life, and I love being young and in love. I can't wait to have insurance again and then go to my new ob-gyn and get the answers I need about continuing birth control. Blogging again probably this next week!

EIGHT MONTHS

Wow it's been eight months of marriage! I can't believe it! It has gone by so fast. 

I can't believe that in four months it will be a year. Well what has been happening is that we have taken a trip to St. Louis and have been to the zoo. It was so awesome! Pictures below: 

See the lion is looking at me haha. But it was so cool! We have recently gotten fitbits and they have changed our lives! I have lost 7 pounds in about a month. It is so great. I have been on birth control for the past 2 and a half months. I am going to be on it until September 3, 2015 so we can start trying for a baby again. I love how much this marriage has changed me! I bought a book recently that will help us as well as a book that our friends bought us in the beginning of our marriage. And then there is The Contract book that we bought awhile ago from the BX. They are all good books.

I love reading these books and doing activities with my husband. The first book was a gift from me, to me so that I could have something for our 8 month anniversary. I can't believe it has been 8 months already but I can't wait for a year! I can't wait to have "Baby Miller 1" and trying to have a relationship with my husband as well as us raising out little one together.

Until next week, have fun and I am going to learn how to drive again today below is 

my permit. I can't wait to have a license.

See I get to learn how to drive! I hope to soon have my drivers license!

Date Night to Meramec Springs!

We had an amazing date night. My amazing husband took time out of his day to take me on a long deserved date! I really loved it! It was the most perfect date and we spent all of 5 dollars to do this date night! Here are the pictures we took. The first is a video we took! My husband is the narrator and he is amazing! I love him!

The next is a few photos.

I love my husband! 6 months down, eternity to go!

Awesome Trout size! Can't wait to camp out!

Wow! Am I right?!

Lovely Waterfall in the background!

Poor Trout!

4 deer, plus a squirrel in the picture! 5 more doe's we saw after this!

My husband is a scout! We respect nature because if we don't she might turn around and kick us in the behind when we aren't looking!

We had an amazing date night! Nothing made it go wrong! Can't wait to have another date night next week!

SIX month anniversary

We celebrated our six month yesterday! I couldn't believe it! So we were in Jefferson City and we decided to go to a restaurant that was cheapish, but right down the street from our suburban. The restaurant is called Madison's Cafe. We both got Spaghetti and Meatballs. He actually finished it, but I had to take mine home halfway through it and ate it later giving him the meatballs. I'll post a picture down below of the plate with spaghetti and meatballs.

It was extremely good and amazing! I couldn't believe that we were in the capital and it was still that cheap! I can't wait to go back someday and do some more exploring! We even got a picture of us before the capital building! I love it, it is super amazing!!

It was a great day, but it was not filled with fun. The things we did were personal, so I won't disclose online. It was just fun being with my man in the capital, on our halfversary! And in honor of our halfversary, I made things for our wall! And since a lot of you aren't on my facebook, I'll post it here!

It is so practical! Too bad we have to take it down soon. But we are getting a better place and we'll hang it up again. When we move I'll show you everything once we actually get it made up! Can't wait to sign the lease and then start moving in. We might even end up staying there a lot in the process of moving if we move our bed in the beginning which I really want to so that it just makes it easier. So that we can be found when we feel like being found. That's one of the reasons we are moving.

There are more. We've asked our rental company to have the owner actually come and fix the warped door. To fix a couple other things. We've asked for five months and then they want to jack up the rent, and we are done. Can't wait until we are outta there. It makes me mad when I think about staying there anymore.

When we move out, the new people will demand the same I believe. The reason is, is because they won't tolerate it the way we have. They won't ask time and time again and then just do whatever. If they are lucky they'll just tear up their contract. If it is really bad, they will sue them and then the owner for renting a bad home. It also has a couple outlet plug covers that are non existent. We thought about covering them up, but why spend our money if it won't help us in the long run. We were bound to move out anyway.

I can't wait to get into our new place and have peace for a long time. Just be ourselves and feel like we can breathe every time the doorbell rings. Instead of our heart stopping each time it rings or the door is knocked on.

Yes it FINALLY snowed in SouthWest Missouri!

Like I said, it finally snowed! We took ONE picture and it was the best picture we could get! We are a young couple and we ENJOY the snow! Love it!

I love my man, his kisses, the life we have together and that it finally snowed!!
I can't wait for some fun in the snow!

First Birthday in the Married Life!

I don't usually talk about my birthday on Facebook, instagram, or any other social media sites. The reason I don't do that, is because usually my friends just post a sentimental post about how my birthday should/could go. Well here is how my birthday will be this year: Get up, do daily ritual at home like, brush teeth, get dressed, and do other things, then go to campus and eat breakfast, then we will part ways at 9:25 am and he will go to class, and I will get on the rest of my homework for college, and then we'll meet up at the library where we departed an hour and fifteen minutes before and go to lunch. Then we'll have to head home and we'll have approximately 2 hours before he goes to work. So that is how my day will be, with my husband working. But you know what, its to provide for us and our family.

I cannot wait until I am out of my teenage years! But that is another year away! Here's to waiting a few months before he has a birthday! I love him more than ever! He is the best husband for me, and will be the best father for our children!